The past few weeks have been wonderful. And awful. My little sissie, AKA "Honey" got married. She is so beautiful, it was wonderful.
My parents are getting ready to come home after their accident, and that will be wonderful as well.
Still, so much needs to be done so that they can be safe and comfortable in this old house. I sometimes despair that it will all get done. How could one house collect so much dirt ... cobwebs ... junk? Fifty plus years of living ... raising children ... memories ... here. So much stuff. Every nook and cranny jammed full of stuff. "I might need that someday". It's a curse we have. Something I am trying to break through myself.
It's hard to let go of the stuff of life isn't it? When I had meningitis 14 years ago I lost a lot of memories. To me, "stuff" helps jog those memories and old feelings out from the fog they are stuck in. I am afraid I will lose them forever. But I can't keep all this stuff.
Staying busy is not an issue now. Finding a moment alone and at peace is what I crave. I don't know when this will happen, if ever.
And the stuff? I guess I need to learn to concentrate on the words of my recently-married-little-sister ... "Sometimes you just gotta close your eyes and throw it away".
Tee hee--that was a hilarious moment, wasn't it? ((hugs)) Our sissyLeigh--now a married woman with her life and his and their small one stretching out before them.
ReplyDeleteI admire your courage, my darling Sissy. My love and prayers surround you like a blanket. There isn't hardly a moment during the day, when I am not thinking of you and praying for you.
“Some people spend their entire lives reading but never get beyond reading the words on the page, they don't understand that the words are merely stepping stones placed across a fast-flowing river, and the reason they're there is so that we can reach the farther shore, it's the other side that matters.”
ReplyDelete-Jose Saramago
................“Everything in the universe has a purpose. Indeed, the invisible intelligence that flows through everything in a purposeful fashion is also flowing through you.”
-Wayne Dyer..........
thinking of you dear Clytie, sending my friendship hugs.
What a cute picture! I love the flip flops!
ReplyDeleteClytie, How about this take things you are worried about forgetting put them in a group before you disguard them and take a picture of them. Then put all the pictures on a disc. "Things I Want to Remember" If you don't have the equipment post them all on one of your blogs and I'll burn a disc for you.
ReplyDeleteI think I understand how you're feeling, I've been there and this scripture helps me alot to lose my fears.
"Peace I leave with you, my peace I give unto you, let not your heart be troubled neither let it be afraid."
Wish your sister happy for me, hang in there, and know that you are loved by many. Love, Sissy Dea
As long as the "stuff" isn't the result of hoarding, then it is probably OK. I look around and see "stuff" here too and then I think where did I get all the money to buy all of this "stuff" with. Money is the culprit. When I was growing up we didn't have stuff and we didn't have money either.
ReplyDeleteThanks for all of the comments you left on my blogs. It is all appreciated.
I don't know why this song came into my head after reading this... : "There's a hole in the bucket dear Elijah dear Elijah, There's a hole in the bucket dear Elijah, A hole! and the response... Then fix it dear __-(I forget the name) dear _____, dear ______ fix it" ... Then around and around it goes.... only to never quite fix the bucket.... Why this came to me I'm not quite sure. Other than I would keep the bucket because it was one my father used to milk cows and well it was useful once... and well.. It has meaning to me... and well... I can fit it ... um... there ... on top of that pile of other meaningful stuff of mine.
ReplyDeleteMy friend is cleaning out her parents house and all the tons of things stored in it. She has spent 6 weeks just sorting and recycling, and giving things away, and reading old letters.. etc... Bottom line she gave away, threw out or recycled about 9/10ths of the "stuff" her parents had accumulated. 1/10 she's kept as memories. Not bad considering she has her parents genes as well. It was a project that hasn't quite gotten finished yet. I blame the great depression for a lot of that generations "collecting". People did "horde/Store" things as, literally, you might need it someday. That kind of Packratism is hereditary even though it may skip a generation. I follow my grandmother rather than my mother. I may not have as much stuff as my grandmother did, but I do share some of that "heritage". I'm slowly learning to declutter and not place so much attachment on things. After all they are just things. If those things trigger memories, than keep some of them, take pictures of some of them.... but sort through what is real and what is imaginary as far as the "need" factor goes. This is what a friend told me... Harsh I thought when I heard it too. but yet, it did make sense. And one room, one garbage can at a time... it works... good Luck my friend, change is never easy but it is inevitable.
Congratulations to your sister! What a wonderful family you have. Best wishes for a Bright and Glorious future for you and your family. Love and Light, Nina P